If you don't like what i write, then quit reading...

I hate Christmas. It holds no meaning for me. There is nothing special about it for me. I wish it would go away. i wish i could go away. A time for family? Not really... the kids just want money, and who knows if my oldest will even show up. No one special in my life. No one to buy a special gift for. No one to sit by the tree (oh yeah, what tree?) no one to just BE with . those of you who have all of these things won't be able to relate.

I have given up on ever finding a special someone. What's wrong with me that no one wants to know me or be with me, and that includes male or female company.

I met someone again and he acted so interested and then - poof- he doesn't call back when he said he would. It's the typical man, so typical and I'm sorry guys, not even stereotypical because you are all the same. It's rude, just downright rude not to return a call.

There is no where to go to meet people when you are all alone. No where to meet anyone new in this stupid small town, but would it be different anywhere else.